In the past I’ve put way to much trust in the wrong people, and I let myself get attached to them so genuinely. In result, now I push people away naturally… Not to be rude, but as a defense mechanism. I don’t want the wrong people getting too close only to use me or to betray the genuine friendship I’m offering. I hate to say people have made me this way, but it’s true. We naturally are products our environment. The good thing about life is that as we grow older, we mature enough to recognize the faults of our habits. We then have the choice of changing our situations. Maybe one day I’ll go back to letting everyone in whether they do me wrong or not. I try to imagine to that I’ll have a “at least it was good coming from my end” type of attitude, but that seems very far from my reach as of now. We’ll see.
I didn’t even mean to ran for this long but whatever, it was on my mind.